Friday, April 12, 2024

SINKING SHIP

 SO AT THE END OF FEBRUARY I WENT TO LOOK AT SOME HOUSES. THERE IS OR WAS THIS  1 HOUSE THAT ME AND MY MOTHER WENT TO SEE THAT DAY.  THE DAY SEEMED GLOOMY FOR SOME REASON YET  WE STILL WENT TO SEE IT.  I GOT OUT OF THE CAR. mY MOM PUSHED ME TO THE 2 STEPS TURNED ME AROUND TO BACK ME UP THE STEPS.I GUESSED SHE  DIDN'T  SEE  THE  LAST STEP. SHE FELL BACK AND BROKE HER ARM. I HEARD THE  CRACK AS SHE FELL. IN MY MIND, I'M THINKING SHE JUST HIT A CAN BECAUSE, IT WAS DARK AND WINDY. THE HOUSE WAS JUST BEING BUILT SO IT WAS CONCRETE AND WALLS. I'M PANICKING , SHE'S IN PAIN YET,SHE'S TRYING TO HOLD IT TOGETHER....            I BLAME MYSELF EVERYDAY FOR THAT.  IF I HADN'T WENT TO SEE THE HOUSE. THIS WOULDN'T HAVE HAPPEN. 


MOM KEEP TELLING ME THAT IT WASN'T MY FAULT. THE CRAZY THING IS THAT EVEN AFTER ALL OF THATSHE STILL GOT UP AND ROLLED ME THROUGH THE HOUSE.  WHAT AMAZING WOMAN IS THAT, IN THE MIDST OF HER PAIN. SHE STILL THOUGHT ABOUT ME. SHE'S DOING BETTER NOW. SHE'S  IN PHYSICAL THERAPY


MY MOTHER IS MY SHIP AND THAT DAY. I SAW MY SHIP FALL AND I FELT  HELPLESS AND VULNABLE. I TRULY DISLIKE BEING IN A WHEELCHAIR, I KNOW JESUS DESIGN MY LIFE AS HE SAW FIT YET, I WONDER WHY HE LET IT HAPPENED. ITS NOT RIGHT TO QUESTION GOD..  IT'S HARD  BUT JOB SAID THOUGH HE SLAY ME,I STILL TRUST HIM..  I GOT TO TRUST HIM. HE'S ALL I KNOW.  IT HURTS    LIKE CRAZY KNOWING THAT HAPPENED TO HER                   

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SINKING SHIP

 SO AT THE END OF FEBRUARY I WENT TO LOOK AT SOME HOUSES. THERE IS OR WAS THIS  1 HOUSE THAT ME AND MY MOTHER WENT TO SEE THAT DAY.  THE DAY...